How I wish this guilt killed me in one strike.

Thank you

And you, even far, are always present in my everyday life.
I see you in every corner, hear you in every song, touch you in every sun ray that lighted up the day.
Since you came by to my life, its been happiness, the only choice.
Since you came by to my life, never passed a day without a smile on my face for at least half of it.
You would turn me upside down, just so things around me made more sense, you would clean the mess I made just so I wouldn't make it again.
You found me, and somehow you are saving me.
Even without you knowing, you are fixing me.
Perhaps, even without me knowing, You are bringing the light. You are killing the darkness. You are mending the scars. You are fixing the smile, You are giving me your hand. When I need it the most.
And for this, for everything you have done, and for all the things you wont know you did, Thank you.

Thank you for loving me, Thank you for holding me up. Thank you for knowing my flaws and going on with it. Thank you for never turning me down.

Thank you.

FUCK CUSTOMER SERVICES

Customer service is such a crock of shit.

 No, the customer is NOT always right. Sometimes the customer is just an asshole, but will receive no repercussions for acting like so due to the fundamentally idiotic concept that is “customer service.”

I can hardly stand the fact that without us employees there would be no one to keep their businesses running, No one to answer the stupid questions of the fucktards, And no one to be around and listen to them going on and on about how the usage got EATEN up, when they themselves admit to have received video clips from a Viber group. Fucking morons have no idea how stuff work, and go on judging the other person for having a child's voice, cos for some fucked up reason a the persons voice is the only factor which determines the amount of knowledge they have. Ungrateful snot rats have no idea how much effort was pulled into calling them 4 fucking time in an hour only to hear them say "Sorry Im still at the movie, please call back later". Yeah sure, I will call you back later, cos im a processed machine who does not have anything better than calling you back later.

Well, Fuck you ! I shouldn’t have to sugar coat anything to attempt to make you feel warm and fuzzy when you’re acting like a cold, heartless prick.

I shouldn’t have to smile at you and kindly help you while you insult me, my work ethic, and the company I work in.

“Customer service” doesn’t please the customers; customers are inherently selfish and greedy. They are rarely pleased, even after getting what they want.

All “customer service” does is dehumanize employees and make them cynics.

“Customer service” is the sum total of everything wrong in the work place.

And I could give the world to runaway from this hell of a job if it werent for the blue moons of good customers who for once appreciate the work done by a staff.
But on another note, FUCK CUSTOMER SERVICES.

Im sorry

I dont know how

Soon.

One day soon, I will be close to you. One day, I'll be able to hold your hand walking down the street, I'll be able to run my thumb over your knuckles and look at your sly smile. I'll be able to comfort you when you're upset hug you tight and try my best to say the stupidest things to make you smile. I will be able to hold you in my arms, feel your warmth. One day soon, I will be will be able to tell you how much I adore you and how much you mean to me in person. One day soon, I will able to look into your eyes and see the emotions behind them when I tell you how much I love you. One day sppn, I will be able to kiss you, your lips against mine making me weak. I'll kiss you and it will feel the way I feel about you. I'll have to catch my breath and ask myself if this is real. One day soon, we will do on a proper date to a fancy restaurant, and I wont care. I will spoil you every chance I get. One day soon, we will have a lazy date. We'll lay in bed all day, not moving unless we have to. We'll watch movies halfway through which you'd start snoring.Tell stories which you have heard a thousand times. We will cuddle and laugh. One day soon, we wont have to say goodnight like we do now.
One day soon, I will be close to you again.

Your absence.

I want to unravel all the little bits and pieces you left tangled in my brain when you left.
It haven't been all that long since you left, but time seems to have stalled.
I find everything to remind me of you, and I am starting to think that it wont go away. I can still feel the scent of your skin, I could still taste the kisses of your lips when you pressed them against mine intensely.
And Im here finding comfort in the brief days we held each other close.
For you are physically so far that my world crumbles in your absence.

I want to be that person who gave you something to look forward to despite the distance.

LDR FEELS #1

When you start writing about being in a long distance relationship and your partner becomes obsessed with becoming your biggest fan.

Kiss me when you get here.

I want to kiss you, a passionate kiss with you in the rain. A good morning kiss where you roll over from the other side of the bed before sun rise. One underwater, or on the highest peak of the mountains. I want a kiss on the stroke of midnight on new years where you look down at me when the fireworks start to explode in the sky. I want to run to you and you would catch me in your arms and slowly lean down to kiss me, twirling me around. I want the kind of kiss where you sneak into my bedroom and wake me up with one, a kiss on a rooftop with the stars blazing from behind. I want kisses where we are sitting down on a calm beach with nothing but the sound of waves, I want kisses on the cheek with you snuggling me from behind. I want Spiderman kisses where you are upside down, and secret kisses in a crowd without anyone noticing. I want kisses that last forever, and the ones where we creep onto the sofa. One shared on a Camera, or sliding down a slide into your arms knocking you down. I want the kind of kisses followed with 'Goodnight Babe'. But the most special one in a long time when you see me the next time going 'Ugh I've missed your lips so bad'.
And You shall make up for all the kisses above before heading back.

Distance.

One of the most important parts about a long distance relationship is to take things one day at a time, not to stress on how long you're going to be apart, for it will only make things harder. It is important to remember if you really love each other and if its meant to be, all the other things are going to align and work out on their own. You should never stress yourself out. Some night are going to be harder than the others, you're going to want to scream, cry, tear your hair out and make a gigantic paper plan to fly over there when you see them on that screen, and they are just there but you cant touch them. So close, yet so far away. Just remember that distance makes the heart grow fonder, It sucks and you dearly wish it didn't. I'm not gonna lie but sometimes it can be heart wrenching, and dragging. But when you're with the right person, the person who makes you want to be a better person, the person who makes you smile with just one word, the person who makes you feel loved, the person who would moves mountains to please you, You'll understand why being so far away from each other is worth it. You are going to be called naive, they will be others who make a mockery of your love and say how many bad experiences they've had and call it a waste, But you cant let you psych you out or get in the way of being with the one person you love the most. I promise you it will be worth it, Cause I know when I see my charming boyfriend's face again, every single night spent away from him will be so worth it. It will be worth feeling his touch, seeing his smile, and being wrapped up in his warmness once again. It will be all worth it, if it is with the one person you don't want to live without.
Nothing incredible will ever come easy, trust me, and never give up.
Cos its all worth in the end.

Starting on LDR

Within this one week since moving into a long distance relationship I've learnt that you can only be qualified for his kinda love, If you can manage time differences, Sucky internet connections and a human size teddy bear.