even if someday, times get hard. Please dont give up on me.

What more could I ask for?

Its the simple 'you can do it' s and 'Are you home?' texts that makes me feel important.
Its the gentle massages and scratched on the back when I mention an itch or an ache that makes me feel secure.
Its the scheduled sessions and the unexpected texts that makes me feel privileged.
Its the glances that you think I don't notice, that makes me feel protected.

Husband to Be #1

Dear Future,

Just so you know, This is me giving you a heads up.

I won’t be afraid to embarrass myself in front of you. I wont hesitate to singing along – badly – to Naifaru Dhohokko or Mariah Carey through a mouthful of toothpaste, while you laugh at me from the bed. It means introducing myself to your siblings with the embarrassing names you call me, or telling everyone how awkward our first encounter was.

It means sitting with you in a warm beach on Sunny day, three ice cream down, My hands resting lazily on yours, and you smiling and rolling your eyes as I sing out loud to you.
These are the times when I follow you around the grocery store, narrating your every move, and telling people you are a Celebrity, when they stare at us.

It’s the moments when you look at me, thinking, “I can’t believe I married this horses-ass.”, and then thinking, “I’m so glad she’s mine.”, because you know that around you, I can be myself.
This is the reassurance that around you, I don’t have to be cool, or distant, or live up to whatever perceptions people have of me. It’s you knowing that when I’m with you, regardless of how we might grow – and we will grow, but we will grow together – that I will never be afraid to bare myself to you, to show you who I am, unapologetically.
It is the first moment when I slip up, and claim I did not fall… and you laugh, letting me know that it’s okay.

It is when you want every single aspect of who I am – the good, the bad, the embarrassing, because I will feel the same way about you.

Yours Sincerely, 

Present.

Consistence

The thing about him is that I can run a river over the teeniest, most reckless things and he still thinks I look good. His arms are the safest place for me on this earth, and whenever I reach for him, he is always responding in the kindest manner.
Cos in the most random of times, he crosses my mind, when he is nowhere near me I think of him, am holding his hand and heart.
Knowing that if I ever go to him, hearing his key on the door will be the best part of my day, him walking into a room with me would be my medicine, My face will always light up and he will be taking my breath away.
The thing about him is knowing that I can always count on him to hold my hand I need him, to show me love when I'm messed up and knowing that he is nothing, but Consistence.

I love my Consistence.