LDR Feels #5 Summer is coming back.

I see him in 4 days, and nothing in this world is going to be better than this feeling.
All the constant nagging of 'Why aren't you here?'s are going to be over for him.
All the red-eyed Skype dates, All the random costly phone calls are going to be replaced.
All the times I've cried not being able to see him, not being able to be in his arms when I want, not being able to hug him, kiss him or spend time just staring at his dreamy eyes, are finally going to be over.
 He is finally going to be on a plane, drive hours to see me.
After all these long months of explainable temper and breakdowns, he is going to be standing right in front of me for the explanatory breakdowns and every little thing that I'd do. We'll be together, we will spend days together, in each other's presence, in the most memorable, wonderful and romantic way ever.
I see him in 4 days, and nothing is going to be better than this.

LDR Feels #4 All the Miles

When I think of all the miles
all the hours that lie between us,
I'm not thinking of Separation,
Not a distance that draws us apart.
I have come instead, to understand
that the space between
Shows the length I will go for you,
The minutes Counting down
to the moment when my eyes rest on yours,
Add up to the hours of my life
I've spent searching for those hands
That perfectly fill the spaces between my fingers.
So I rest in these moments that lie in between.
Assured,
For I know that these same shells I find,
that whisper the ocean,
are also found on your shores,
and these peonies, that bloom in my heart,
are the best of the scents in yours too.

LDR Feels #3 Summer, come back.

This is for the time, we swallow our tear, trying hard to bite them down. For the days when our souls feel heavy, so we slump our tired shoulders down, down and down.
This is for the days when getting out of bed feels like an achievement. And for the days when we tremble with anger, our temper on the pry.
This is for the days, we feels empty, useless and invisible like a hungry ghost.
For the really tough says, which rip us wide open, leaving us naked and exhausted and shivering in the dark.
The days where we just want to give up.
We can try all we want to, to run away and flee into the dark.
but we don't want to, so what do we do?
We can be bold till the distance of spaces come closer, and snap your fingers while we do it.
We can imagine running directly towards our other halves, sprinting with wide open arms, to their supportive smile.
We can buy ourselves a big bouquet of our favorite flowers.
We can clear a space, and cry a thousand crystalline drops, till the skies clears and summer returns.
We can stand under the shower for an extra hour and not worry about loneliness.
We can curl up into a child's pose and cry into a yoga mat.
We can reach out one hand to the next and squeeze it hard.

LetsbebadasstillSummerreturns.

1 Billion and counting.

When you have a billion kisses saved for him to come back home, and If he takes any longer you'd lose count.

LDR Feels #2

I groan as my phone chants up the alarm, but to my delight, I go over to the laptop standing in front of me to see that the Skype call from last night hasn't disconnected. I can hear my significant other from over a thousand miles away, fast asleep and breathing peacefully.
The happiness I have right then and there is pretty much equivalent to waking up to my my boyfriend right beside me.
Unless you're in a long distance relationship, you never understand the feeling of successfully having a Skype call for hours, on end to end without disconnecting.

As long as you have a face, I have a place to sit.